A crisis period can happen when
there is a fear of being accessed and deployed. Trust your intuition and panic
around this as in most cases it does involve accessing and deployment. Lots of
internal understanding, lots of talking with no pressuring to inner people, etc
is exteremely important. Also lots of looking at the bigger picture is
necessary. For example, why am I in this place and for this long which
ordinarily I wouldn’t go to or stay for this amount of time? This could be a
sign of accessing and deployment.
There are many ways of being
aware if you are being accessed or are being sent on a “mission”. The main one is to respectfully talk to
parts or personalities. Either organise a time to have a private meeting within
yourself or simply talk when needed. Let all the parts speak even if some or
many are told lies. Discuss with him/her what is happening and look for the
truth. You need to view this from a parental, adult or overall perpsective with
a material understanding of what is happening now. For example, parts maybe
scared of particular places as they remind of past abuse, so explanations are
needed that correspond to the age of the part. Parts are telling the truth and
this needs to be expanded upon. Ask what is happening? If parts are very
emotional, especially sad, then this is a sign that abuse is happening. You may
have been accessed yesterday and the parts that were accessed are traumatised.
If accessed, ask with consideration what time and where the abuse happened.
Having this awareness means you can discharge the hurt and sadness and be in a
better position not to be accessed again. Another way is to keep a diary of
where you have been for the week, month, day, etc. Alos ask understanding
friends, partner or someome who would have a rough idea of your routine or activities where you
wrere or should have been on particulkar days and times to see what the reality
is. Any missing times should then
reveal themselves. Another is to use intuition or to act on niggling
feelings.
Accessing programming is very intense as it is the one that directly controls you/the victim/survivor. When you break accessing you stop the control. Breaking accessing programming is like undoing programming generally. You look for the truth and undo the lies. Undoing accessing has much stress since the perpetrators put time constraints upon when you have to contact next whether by phone, email, face to face, etc. You may feel you are deprogramming against a clock and within a particular time period. It is important to not feel so stressed by getting an understanding of what the accessing is- when are you going to be accessed and where and how. This means you know what the situation is and can take stock of it and not be influenced too much by panic. Talk to parts whose role it is to be accessed. Ask them with care and genuine concern that accessing is not good and that perpetrators are actually horrible. Also use the stress itself. What days and times are you stressed, and what brings on the stress – the thought of emailing, phone, face to face, etc. Use rationality. If you are overseas then the likelihood of the accessing would be email. If you are in an Australian town with no email then the likelihood is that it will be phone, etc.
Breaking accessing can be direct
in not doing the actual contact. This means a thorough understanding that the
accessing was actually broken as it could be a deliberate program of fooling a
part that “accessing was broken” and when in fact another part had to contact.
You will know if accessing is broken by intense programming reactions before,
during or soon after the time of supposed contact. When this happens, it is
important to deprogram as in a stressful situation by looking after yourself and
particularly the parts that had to contact. Talk with them about how the
perpertrators are not helpful and that you shouldn’t have to contact anyway and
within their time demands. You should be able to do what you
want.
Breaking accessing can also be
undoing the programming beforehand. This again means looking after parts and
explaining that they are not friends or helpful and that you can do what you
want.
Stopping accessing is a major stage in
stopping being a victim. Once accessing has stopped they cannot control you
anymore. They cannot tell you where to go, they cannot reprogram or torture you
again, they cannot tell you how to live your life, etc.