Being
aware of being abused is obviously important in being a survivor. Its where the
victim/survivor can acknowledge and accept that abuse happened or is happening,
and can take steps to stop it. Its also the most difficult stage. Its when the
victim/survivor has to take stock of him/herself to see if s/he can cope, can
find resources, can endure the memories and programming, etc. The desire for freedom
and the awareness that this can actually happen is stronger and survivors take
on the challenge.
Survivors can become aware by many ways. The most usual is acceptance of the memories. Some survivors have memories by themselves and without knowing of its existence by other survivors, the public, counsellors, etc. Unfortunately and mostly, these survivors have been told that the memories are an illness, or fabrication. They were shut away in psychiatric hospitals, heavily medicated, etc. A survivor who can have the memories with validation is someone who is better able to recover. Today many survivors get memories of the abuse and are able to get validation by the internet, alternative media, aware counsellors and people and friends who are aware of the abuse.
Survivors can also believe that they are/have been abused regardless of how they were dismissed. The memories are too strong and too “unusual” to be fabricated or as a supposed symptom of a “mental illness”.
Survivors
also get awareness by being informed of its existence. By chance there maybe a
survivor in a sexual assault or ritual abuse survivor group, there could be a
news item about revelations of mind control, a friend maybe talking about it,
etc. The victim/survivor then is able to get memory because s/he knows it
exists.
The level of awareness depends upon how much the victim/survivor can accept the reality of the abuse. There are many threats and lies, which have been put in place by previous and current trauma, to stop victim/survivor remembering. Most survivors take some time to fully accept that they are or were abused. There are two main forms of acceptance. The first is an overall one of being a grubbermint survivor. The other is of specific aspects such as parts of oneself or personalities, the brainwashing/programming and its segmentation, roles, tasks, cueing, systems, etc. Awareness comes and goes. One may feel too scared at times to accept they are a survivor or to not accept specific memories.
Most
AGMC victims/survivors are being accessed and deployed even when they get the
awareness. Perpetrators think that they can control a victim/survivor for as
long at they want and so will continually try to access and deploy. Therefore
getting awareness is a continual process and one which means understanding if
there is current abuse. For information about working out if the
victim/survivor is being accessed please see Accessing Programs and Stopping Them.
Awareness
means trusting your feelings, intuition, memories, dreams, logical thinking, or
any other abilities and things that help you get the truth. As programming is
also full of lies and false images, it is really important to determine what is
real and what isnt If there is confusion, which happens a lot to
victims/survivor, use rationality and intuition a lot. For example, with being
accessed, it is irrational for me to be in a part of town that I would never go
to.
Awareness
is part of the all important consciousness and association. The aim of the
perpetrators is to keep the victim/survivor dissociated or spaced out, and for
victims/survivors to not be conscious of either past or current abuse.
Consciousness is knowledge and the ability to control your life. You know now
you are a victim/survivor and can do something about it. After a while, the
victim/survivors learns to trust his/her feelings and ways of getting
consciousness and it becomes second nature.
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